APA-BlogDayBadge-2014Today, I am reposting The Authentic Therapist because I feel like it fulfills most of the goals of Mental Health Blog Day.

We must own our stories.

We must fight for our recovery.

We must break the shamed silence and negative stigma surrounding mental health, as we are all fighting a battle of some kind and therefore we all must choose our own recovery.

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“You see a therapist?!?”

I think this question is posed for several reasons. But, if I practiced mind reading, which I never recommend doing, this is what I think is really behind this question:

Only really crazy people have to see a therapist!

But you’re a therapist, shouldn’t you have this all figured out?

Chin up! Can’t you just figure it out for yourself?

You must not be strong enough to deal.

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I struggle and I am a therapist.

I am a therapist, and yet I am also a perfectly imperfect human myself.

I have faith there will be a day when we all have a therapist we work with sporadically throughout our lives. Because life is hard and people are complicated. And to have someone outside of your friends and family to help you through it all, is nothing less than priceless.

I also have faith there will be a day that people aren’t shocked that I regularly see a therapist (patients, friends, family and strangers alike). Because life is hard and people are complicated, especially when you are the one helping others through all that life is hard and people are complicated stuff.

Be braveI am also a therapist who lives my life afraid and brave every second of every day. I live my life honoring my authentic truth. I live this way because it is how I have found my own recovery. I live this way because I have done the hard work, choosing it every day, of my recovery. I live this way because I simply cannot not live this way.

I also live this way because I see how much my clients are empowered to change their own lives as I show them my work.

It was drilled into my head in graduate school that as counselor we DO NOT GIVE ADVICE! It didn’t take long of me working in this field, in the real world of limited time and resources, managed health care and difficult life circumstances, that I knew this philosophy just wasn’t going to work for the people I help or for me and the kind of therapist I wanted to be. I will not answer all your troubles, I will not do the work for you, and I cannot save you if you are not ready to save yourself. But I can assure you, I will walk alongside you modeling what it is like to fight for your own recovery. I will pull you forward, at times, urging you to have faith that it will get better. And, there will be those times I push you forward because it is simply what you need right then to take the best next stop forward.

I also learned in graduate school, as is the philosophy of many in my field, that our clients know nothing about us, that we are blank slates. Early in my career, before I really had to fight for my own recovery, I practiced more on this side of impersonal connection. However, I found that I was working way harder than my clients. I also found I struggled with boundaries because I was fighting so much harder than the client to save their own life. Only after fighting for my own recovery was I able to both share and model my fight for my clients. Self disclosure will always be a hotly debated topic in mental health, as it needs be. As, it needs to be used ONLY when it will move the client forward in their own work. Therapists, myself included, must be careful to not dump our own shit onto our clients. Constantly keep tabs on why we are sharing our own battles with our clients to make sure it is for them and not us.

My own transparency along with the public forum of writing a blog has meant my clients may know a lot about my life and struggles, sometimes even before their first session. I am sure this will make some in my field cringe, graduate professors included. However, it is without a doubt, that I can say this has done nothing but make me a better therapist and better able to help others through their struggles. Not only does this provide constant teaching moments for clients in empathy and authenticity but they know they are truly seen and known when they come to see me for their sessions. They know they are talking to someone who has fought this epic war of recovery. They know they are talking to someone who is not perfect, who also struggles with self-compassion towards that perfection but who, most importantly, owns their story.  I have been asked by my own treatment team what it has been like for my clients to know more about my life, especially as this is something I make sure to have supervision on. Honestly, it is something that is difficult to put into words as it feels like something bigger than us; it is recovery, it is connection, it is ever upward.

raysMarianne Williamson captures this perfectly, “As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

So I will write about my life, both in this blog and in the book Ever Upward. I will share with my clients parts of my own story when I think it will be helpful in their recovery. I will model the daily fight and choices of recovery.

I will help.

I will walk alongside.

I will pull forward.

And, I will push.

I will help by being me. I will help by owning my story; ugly, shameful, scary, imperfect parts and all. Because it is only within this ownership that my ever upward is found and I can really help.

 

9 thoughts on “Mental Health Blog Day

  1. gsmwc02 says:

    This is so true that you can’t be afraid to admit when you need help. There is nothing wrong with admitting when you are in therapy. I openly tell people that I spent 7 months in therapy last year after my infertility diagnosis. I’ve never met anyone who has mocked it, in fact they have supported it.
    Thank you for writing this piece and all that you do.

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    1. Thank you so much! I can feel and see the stigma breaking more and more. Thanks for the read and comment! Justine

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  2. Great post! With people who know what we are going through, I’ve never shied away from mentioning I see the greatest psychologist in the world. She’s made a tremendous difference for us.

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    1. Thank you! I say the same about my therapist!

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  3. Amen. Thanks for reading my post. I feel as though it was meant. I really needed the courage and realism of your blog. May your light always shine bright…even through the grey clouds that may come your way.

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    1. Funny how we find each other right when we need it. Thank you for reading and for your words!

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  4. Cheryl Smith says:

    Thank you so much for stopping by my blog and for leaving encouragement behind. I love the openness and transparency of your blog. We are ALL flawed human beings, hopelessly dependent upon the God Who created us and loves us with all His heart. He placed us here to help each other through this uncertain journey of life. Iron sharpens iron. I praise Him for allowing us to connect today! May His peace surround you and dwell within you always.

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