One week shy of 9 months after my dad’s life changing fall off a ladder, my family has faced another life threatening and forever life changing tragedy. I have spent the last week along side Chad’s family in Denver on another of the scariest roller coasters of my life.

You can read more about my sister in law’s journey here, and please send all the prayers, light, love and strength you can, as we all have a long road ahead.

Preparation in fight and faith.

There is no doubt that my dad’s accident prepared me for this journey. I knew what kind of support my family would need because it was the support that I lacked myself during dad’s accident. So I bossed; making people sleep, eat and take breaks. I counseled; providing the space to vent, talk and cry. I helped; starting the Caring Bridge site and simply just being me. And, I walked through it with my continually growing faith; allowing my in laws to give themselves permission to beg and question God for their daughter’s life while also trusting Him and their faith. As my friend Kelly told me, I think I may have a calling as a chaplain in my future.

I may never get to know why this year has been both the best and hardest year of Chad and I’s lives; a job promotion for Chad and launching Ever Upward for me, and yet we have also experienced these two family medical emergencies, that were literally life or death.

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAWhat I do know is that I felt different through this emergency, I felt my faith more than I ever have. I also witnessed too many miracles to ignore the fact that He does have a plan for us. And, even if in this moment I am not sure I like, or even want to accept, His plan, I still know that it is and will be okay.

Because out of these ashes He will bring beauty.

I trust this more than I ever have in my life. I trust this because of my journey out of my ashes; two back surgeries and a year in a body cast, the lifelong losses of infertility, three lost babies and the rock bottom of my life. I believe, especially with having faith in something, that we can fight for and find our beauty out of the ashes.

This is ever upward.

There are many things I do not know. I do not know when my sister in law will get a new heart. I do not know how difficult this road will be for all of us. I do not know if Ever Upward will ever get the big break I so hope it does. And, I do not know when the next trauma, loss or tragedy will strike me or my family.

However, there are many things I do know. I know that we will be okay no matter what. I know that one day I will get the understanding of the why I so desire, even if it is just on the other side of eternity. I know that if we continue to give ourselves permission to talk about it, embrace it, practice recovery from it and own it all, we can all find the beauty we all so deserve no matter what we face.

This is the work of faith.

This is the work of life.

This is the work of finding and moving ever upward.

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This post lined with Amateur Nester’s Link-Up.

 

 

10 thoughts on “Out of the Ashes

  1. jessicahiltz says:

    I feel bad that you have to go through yet another valley. Thankful that He has a plan…and He is beside us all the way!

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    1. Jessica, Thank you for your thoughts and prayers ❤

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  2. I am heartbroken that your family is going through such a significant struggle. I love that everyone is coming together and supporting one and other. Sending you lots of love and keeping you in my thoughts.

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    1. Thank you, we need all the love and light we can get right now. Thank you so much my friend! Justine

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  3. candidkay says:

    Keeping you all in my prayers:).

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    1. Thank you so much! She is doing amazingly well!! Truly miraculous!!!

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