A mini post about something that, of course, caught me off guard and has been bugging me a bit.
Do the mothers think of us non-mothers in a group conversation?
A few weeks ago I attended the biggest convention of my life; 7000 people big.Which means I met a lot of incredible people and I had to give my elevator speech of who I am many times over.
There is always that part…the part where you share about your family and my response is one not many people identify with, “No, we don’t have kids, we tried but can’t have them.”
But then as the weekend goes on and I as get to know these incredible women and am having so much fun the conversation inevitably turns to their kids and being mothers.
And I am left without the experience to contribute and completely in my head.
Sometimes I wonder, do they ever stop and think of us?
Do they ever have that moment of
Poor Justine, we’re just talking about our kids and she’s over there and she can’t have them.
Or do they never have that thought and I am just personalizing all of it way too much?
But, I know I am not the only one out there who has felt this way. So my question, for our recovery, is what do we do with this?
I think our job is to make sure to stay engaged. If we disengage from the conversation completely we lose connection. And, we already feel lonely enough as women without children in our society. So we must engage and look for that moment to contribute to the conversation or maybe even change the subject.
Or maybe one day, we can brave enough to just call it out and just state the awkwardness that we are feeling, and maybe they are too.
What I know for sure is that I will continue this work in rising ever upward to always be engaged in my life, even when I am feeling that sense of not fitting in. Especially because, most likely, it is in my head and only my perception that is causing that feeling.
And that, is completely changeable and in my control.
I’d love to hear what your experiences have been. How do you handle this part of the infertility and childfull journey? What about all you mothers out there, what are your experiences?