I’ve always wondered how our family portrait would ever be complete.

How do I honor my three without my three here on earth?

And then some photos from a few photographers starting showing up on my social media, a result of how much coverage Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month is getting this year.

And so, we now have our first complete, and yet forever, longing family portrait too (thank you Betsy!).

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Never to feel the relief at the sound of your first cry.

And yet, I imagine your giggles, always.

Never to know your name.

And yet, you are known and spoken by my heart, always.

Never to feel the warmth of your skin in my arms.

And yet, I feel you holy every day, always.

Never to know the tangible completeness; always wondering who you might have been and who we might have been.

And yet, trusting and knowing we are whole, even in our longing, always.

 

20 thoughts on “Petite Post: Even In Our Longing

  1. This is just beautiful. It gave me the chills – the shadow images are not only how I’ve seen them but also how I feel them……..

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    1. Exactly! Thank you! ❤

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  2. Sahar says:

    Oh wow! How did you feel when you first saw the pictures?

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    1. Sahar, I felt it all, awe and sadness, clarity and longing, love and amazement. I love them!

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      1. Sahar says:

        Wow, that’s quite amazing and a little incredible (the good kind!) Do you think all mothers who have been through the same thing are ready to see such a picture?

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      2. I think it depends on the mother, and family, of course. I feel them with me always, this is incredible and tangible way to truly “see” them.

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  3. laurieprim says:

    Beautiful, Justine. Hug.

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  4. thesmallc says:

    These pictures make me feel emotional. This is very touching.

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  5. anotherforty says:

    Wow, these are so special, congratulations on getting them done!

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