I cannot take back a year in a body cast at an age no teen should feel so trapped and alone.

I cannot take back time lost to the darkest of my depression.

I cannot take back sanity lost to hormones of a failed infertility journey.

I cannot take back three losses that stole a lifetime of dreams.

None of it punishment or what I deserved.

Hell, many days I do not believe it all happened for a reason.

Simply my life, my past, my story.

Fighting to take back from it pieces of myself.

Weaving those pieces into the fabric of what I must carry with me always.

Allowing the no take backs to no longer define all of who I am.

Choosing how I am changed.

Rising ever upward.

Shining bright the no take backs of who I have become.

Allowing the no take backs to no longer define all of who I am.Choosing how I am changed.Rising ever upward.Shining bright the no take backs of who I have become.

9 thoughts on “No Take Backs

  1. raphaela99 says:

    I can’t believe that you and I had the same spinal ops and were in a body cast as teens! xxx


  2. Resilience. That’s what this is. Facing the hard stuff head on instead of running from it. I love the no take backs mentality….it’s a great reminder that the sum of the hard stuff helped to shape us into the people we are today. We are so much bigger than the hard stuff, no matter how bad it was. Thanks for the reminder!

    I stumbled across this blog that someone linked on Facebook: http://www.timjlawrence.com/blog/2015/10/19/everything-doesnt-happen-for-a-reason. It’s an interesting take on the “everything happens for a reason” mentality. Thought you’d enjoy.


    1. Thank you! Love this piece too!! J


  3. anotherforty says:

    I believe good things happen to bad people and bad things happen to good people and how you react makes all the difference. Focusing on trying to take it back rarely serves a useful purpose.

    I used to carry around much more regret than I do now, and I only wish I could tell the younger me what the older me knows now – that it is all part of the complex puzzle that makes you who you are.


    1. Exactly! A piece of who we are, we must do the work so it is not ALL of who we are.


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