August 31st, 2012 The day we dreamed our first child (or children, as we transferred two embryos) were to be born. We would have hoped to welcome one or two babies into the world around this time. But they were never our babies to have on this side of eternity. I was never meant to …

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A deep knowing breath. The warmth of a soul scar healing just a bit more. A sense of truth, understanding and validation. This is just a tiny sense of what I felt when I read these words from Lindsey Henke in her Still Standing post. “But in my opinion a mother isn’t born when a child …

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I am a numbers person. No, not the add, subtract, divide and multiply numbers kind of person (just ask my accountant husband). The kind of numbers person who remembers dates, phone numbers and birthdays pretty well and for a very long time. I have clients’ phone numbers committed to memory, for no reason, as I …

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Had our IVF worked with our surrogate Michelle, I would have gotten to be in the delivery room to see our babies be born. But that was never my path to experience. I sincerely thought the only births I would ever see would be the ones in that terrible 5th grade sex education class we …

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Happy Mother’s Day! Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers. Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers to be. Happy Mother’s Day to those who have lost mothers. Happy Mother’s Day to those who hope to be mothers. Happy Mother’s Day to those of us who are mothers of angels. Happy Mother’s Day to those …

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The commercials have started airing to remind us all to get the perfect gift for some of the hardest working people on earth; mothers. I will assume I don’t have to go into exactly why Mother’s Day tends to be difficult for us women who are childfree whether by choice, chance or circumstance. And, rest …

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