Sometimes this recovery thing is a real pain in the ass. I’ve taught it for years. I’ve really practiced it myself for the last couple. And, I literally talk about it daily to my clients. And yet, it is still a huge pain in my ass. My life has been crazy. My routine has changed. My …

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Ever Upward is growing. My world is expanding. My recovery is strengthening. Which also means my shamed silence is triggered more often. Even though my shame resilience has grown as a result of my practicing recovery. As I meet more and more people in the infertility world, blogging or otherwise, I am finding myself comparing …

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Several days after one of the most difficult days of the year for me, Mother’s Day, I am reminded at how complicated this whole thing actually is…infertility, childfree living, loss, trauma, tragedy, faith…life. I’ve written it many times before; life is hard and people are complicated. It never seems to be very black or white, which …

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Singing my heart out, holding back tears, as this seems to be what I do lately in church as I am wrestling so much with myself, with trusting and my faith journey, I had one of my first true writer moments. Smack in the middle of the song, I grabbed my bulletin and pen and …

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I’ve been having a slight existential crisis lately; between finishing up the book, Ever Upward and coming up on a year of submitting to agents and publishers (over 220 of them) and the success (although the desire for more) of this blog and my continued journey in finding my faith again and today being the two year …

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Today I gave a presentation for a Lunch and Learn at a major corporation here in Saint Louis. This is my sixth Lunch and Learn with them. I always have good attendance, great feedback and they actually pay me to speak. And yet this morning as I over-prepared, I literally made myself sick with anxiety …

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