Sometimes this recovery thing is a real pain in the ass. I’ve taught it for years. I’ve really practiced it myself for the last couple. And, I literally talk about it daily to my clients. And yet, it is still a huge pain in my ass. My life has been crazy. My routine has changed. My …

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Ever Upward is growing. My world is expanding. My recovery is strengthening. Which also means my shamed silence is triggered more often. Even though my shame resilience has grown as a result of my practicing recovery. As I meet more and more people in the infertility world, blogging or otherwise, I am finding myself comparing …

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It is not uncommon to see my clients struggling to own their stories. Struggling, especially, to own every single part of their stories. We can all struggle to own, let alone, accept, embrace and maybe even like every single part of ourselves and our stories. I’ve been point blank asked by a client, “How do you just put …

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Several days after one of the most difficult days of the year for me, Mother’s Day, I am reminded at how complicated this whole thing actually is…infertility, childfree living, loss, trauma, tragedy, faith…life. I’ve written it many times before; life is hard and people are complicated. It never seems to be very black or white, which …

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Happy Mother’s Day! Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers. Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers to be. Happy Mother’s Day to those who have lost mothers. Happy Mother’s Day to those who hope to be mothers. Happy Mother’s Day to those of us who are mothers of angels. Happy Mother’s Day to those …

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Singing my heart out, holding back tears, as this seems to be what I do lately in church as I am wrestling so much with myself, with trusting and my faith journey, I had one of my first true writer moments. Smack in the middle of the song, I grabbed my bulletin and pen and …

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There will always be some unknowns in our lives at any given time. Life is unpredictable and people are complicated and despite our demand to be in control of everything, it just isn’t up to us. There seem to be a lot of unknowns in my personal life right now, as it also seems to …

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