This week was World Childless Day…since I’m one wordy bitch, sometimes a video does me
more justice 😉
It has been a minute since I posted, about two months actually.
Are you still here?
How are you?
I’ve spent the last two months traveling around the country offering my Rising Ever Upward workshops and intensives. Oh the stories I have…but you’ll have to wait for that book to come out! I’ve met some incredible people, grown this tribe, visited super cool cities, and eaten my fair share of amazing food! I believe in this work more than ever and am honored to continue to offer it and live it.
I wanted to stop by with a few updates:
Now for the different… I have done a lot of work and growth this year, especially in changing my relationship with my pain. This has enabled me to reach more people and build what is slowly but surely becoming an empire. While my team (I have a team guys, small and mighty, yay!) and I get our barrings, especially in figuring out what this looks like starting first with a one stop, all inclusive new website, I’d love to share a series I have started on my Facebook page called #TherapyThursdaywithJustine (TT). Each week we will post a new TT video for you here. If you don’t want to miss them live each Thursday, make sure to like and follow at www.facebook.com/justinebfroelker.
Thank you for sticking with me. Thank you for the continued support, love, and prayers. There are really big and exciting things coming, and I can’t wait to share them with my community here.
For now, here was a bonus TT (for FREE, accountant Chad always likes to add) I did this week about judgment…
Tomorrow kicks off my Rising Ever Upward Tour, and there are not enough emotional words to type to accurately describe how I am feeling.
Thank God I have this work to help me navigate it all.
Tonight I am offering a FREE workshop as I wrap up my 7 week Mini-Course, I’d love for you to join me. I’ll be sharing a glimpse into what this work is all about and much more. You can read more about it here.
I feel a lot of writing coming from me while on tour, some for the next book of course, and some for you all here. Thank you for your patience as I enter into this new stage of my career. I cannot thank this community enough.
Sitting on my orange couch flanked by all three of our dogs, I giggle to myself as Cassandra, my coach, continues on, “How did that turn out?”
Unbeknownst to her, her face has been frozen for the last 5 minutes of our conversation; and yet her question, both powerful and one she already knows the answer to, hits me to the core.
“It didn’t work out how I wanted,” I reply with just the slightest annoyance in my voice.
“And, how did that turn out?” she asks.
“I created and have received this incredible and fucking beautiful life,” I state back with a clarity and a knowing, though a catch of my voice and the tears in my eyes reveal my truth that this life has not come without years of loss, work, and trust.
It was just a minute before, on our call, that I had come to realize that the risk I am taking in going out on tour, offering my workshops and intensives, is not much unlike the risk we took 6 years ago in doing IVF.
Doubt, our own and that of many, many others?
Check. Why else would we sign up for it?
So much the same, and so much, so very different.
Going through the infertility journey six years ago, I was a completely different person.
Back then, who I was with the addition of financial stress, waiting games, synthetic hormones, and no babies was the perfect storm for the deepest darkest crash of my entire life. I was, in many ways, living my life from the place of shame, scarcity, comparison, and with my weaknesses in total control.
The darkness left behind by our infertility journey that ended without kids, was the ashes from which I needed to rise.
And now, to leap into another unknown.
I needed to choose myself, to do the work, and to rise into this incredible person I am and into this incredible life I have now.
I am preparing to leave for tour in less than two weeks, which means the talons of PTSD clutch every organ in my chest and stomach often, as if we are doing another round of IVF. This PTSD triggers overwhelming fear that could easily take over every thought and my entire body if I let it.
I find my breath stolen from me in a second, without so much as a trigger – the fear, doubt, anxiety, shame, and comparison charging up my physiological response to emotion in my pounding heart and shortness of breath.
Yet, I stop myself.
It’s different now.
It has only been with this work, the work I am fighting so hard to bring to my community on tour, that I recognize the symptoms and then refuse to attach to the drama. It is in this choice that I give myself the permission to rumble with what is really going on. It is through this rumble with my shame shit that I choose to cope, to be always rewriting my story, and standing in my sacred truth.
With this work, and my team and community rallying and surrounding me, those PTSD talons are no match for this person and life I have created, fought for, and done the work to receive these last few years.
Most of all, it is no match for my level of faith. Sure, I am quite possibly the literal poster child for when things don’t turn out how you hoped, dreamed, and planned. But…
I am also the flawed, full-of-grit-and-grace badass who rises from those ashes a better person, one who loves harder and shines brighter. It is within this hard that I help others and with that light that I am able to see how beautiful of a life I have been given.
I go into this unknown from a place of self-love, passion, and a burning desire to heal the world.
I eventually took a picture of Cassandra and sent it to her on Messenger. We both laughed and we ended our session in our usual way: of her palpable excitement for what is and what is to come, my complicated gray of excitement and fear, and both of our’s full knowing that whatever is to come of this incredible work we are doing together, we are both certain that it far exceeds our wildest dreams.
I don’t know what God’s plan is for this tour. Just like I didn’t know what God’s plan was for our three.
I know it will be filled with people who are ready to heal and courageous enough to do this work with me. I know it will change their lives, my life, and therefore, the world. I know that no matter if every registration is booked, and no matter how much money made or lost, that it will be God-willed, God-filled, and amazing.
Because unlike the 30% odds of the “successful” outcome with an infertility journey, my odds are 100% when it comes to who I have become, the work I am willing to do on a daily basis, God’s grace, and my badassery rising.
I am just a couple of weeks out from the kick off of my Rising Ever Upward tour.
The registrations are starting to fill my inbox.
People are sending messages.
They are engaging with my Mini-Course and Facebook Lives.
In fact, 22 people took advantage of a last minute pop up class last night for FREE (a $200 value).
A couple of them even registered to come do this work with me in a city near them.
Clarity took root last night for me… I am doing this. I am supposed to be doing this.
And, I am super excited and oh so grateful.
Make sure you have subscribed to my subscriber list, as we still have 2 weeks left of exclusive content coming, along with following along at Facebook.
And, have no doubt, I have a HUGE and AMAZING close planned for this 7 week Mini-Course!
Thank you for your support!